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eve_myles' InsaneJournal:
| Tuesday, November 11th, 2014 | |
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| Thursday, November 10th, 2011 | |
| 2:38 am | Someone told me once I have a way of taking my feelings way too close to the heart. Well they are right, my feelings have a way of getting the better of me and its happened more than once over the last few years. Torchwood being the biggest chunk since part of this is going into confession turf. But confession is good for the soul after all. It's true about me bursting into tears just from reading the script for "Exit Wounds". Plus during COE I think I shed more tears inside a few weeks than in the prior few months put together. But at the same time I also learned something else: shoving my feelings below the surface is not a good idea. That being something I learned the hard way after basically shutting down my soul to get through press in one piece. The tears just fell in spades later on (complete with the headaches from hell afterwards) and for those that have seen it let's put it this way: night 4 was emotional murder in every sense. Around that same time my relationship fell apart: it was simply really bad timing and both of us just growing apart so it never got ugly and we're still friends. So add in all the baggage from that and it was a hairy and draining few months. As Burn got me to see it a few weeks back,"Simply put, 3 kill offs and your relationship ending was just not the best in terms of timing." At the same time spending this past spring in the states while filming Miracle Day was what I needed on some level. I got some distance and in the process it gave me to to think and to consider some options for the future. That period also meant plenty of adventures, new found friendships and prior bonds growing even stronger, discovery in every sense and with plenty of fun along the way. Even now something as simple as this journal is part of that discovery process. Plus its hopefully going to push me beyond that little shell I've been prone to slipping into since moving back to Wales a few months ago. Actually now that I'm thinking about it things can only get interesting, little steps can only be the start of something great. Customs are up for grabs, with the time difference between the states and the UK they just fit better with me. Plus I'm always looking to meet new people and find new friends along the way! |
| Monday, May 10th, 2010 | |
| 1:15 pm | Ripped from the Private Journal There are sides of me I don't let many people see: getting this journal is my way of trying to let those sides be seen without as much of the fear. There is the side that is sometimes too emotional for her own good. Ironic since the night "Exit Wounds" aired I cried untill I threw up (and then came the headache from hell the next day). I trust my heart and sometimes that only leads to trouble, especially when it comes to romance. At the moment I would be the Torchwood poster girl for bad luck since with a combo of schedules and distance I might not be the best choice of girlfriend. But I have faith that will change with some luck and maybe letting John and Gareth start setting me up again. Then there is the Eve that is seen in private: the girl that loves rugby and roots for the Welsh team. The girl that can't cook and has a drawer full of takeaway menus as proof and curses like a sailor to boot. There is also the girl that freely cops to her nerd status, loves books, movies and great music. She will also drop everything when a friend is in need: especially if its from the soul family (I really do think of my friends as a family of choice so in terms of brothers I have John,Gareth and Burn plus Naoko for a sister). Then there is the girl that would rather live in her jeans and trainers than dress up, but I can clean up when needed :) Then there is the scared to death side: since David is leaving Doctor Who that means the two spin offs (Torchwood and Sarah Jane Adventures) have to get to know a new actor. This will be John's 3rd Doctor so I'm just going to let him lead the way on this one, but I am going to miss David! The crossover episodes especially since it was the 1st time all 3 groups were in one room and it was like getting a peek into people you only hear about (minus the fact we did our share of set crashing since Freema spent time with us during series (season) 2). 2 faces of Eve Myles: the public me and the me that comes out when the cameras stop rolling. This is just the beginning of that peek behind the realm of Torchwood. That and I should never go through my paper journal with my Repo cd as background music. |
| Saturday, February 20th, 2010 | |
| 10:14 pm | "He's not afraid to tell me he loves me" Yes another romance related entry but this time from the POV of the hopelessly single one. That quote is pure Gwen but it also fits me as well, I want whoever I end up falling in love with to not be afraid to say that he loves me. Over the last year or so I've gone from being one of several singles in my circle to being the last Torchwoman standing aka no relationship. Sure I joke about letting John and Gareth start the set up attempts once again but at the same time it also feels like something is missing. Everything seems to fall into place from work to friends but its like there's a missing piece of the puzzle that is the true Eve Myles. Sometimes I do wonder if the piece for relationships just fell out of the puzzle box? For Gwen things are finally falling into place but for me there are more questions than pieces of the puzzle. But after finding an old entry in my private journal it also got me to thinking: what am I really looking for when it comes to matters of the heart? One theme kept coming up besides distance if fate brings an American guy into my life, trust and different worlds. Trust because of me being in the UK the bulk of the time and different worlds because being in science fiction is a different world than just being in other lines of work. That's the part that scares me the most: what if he does not get how crazy the world of Torchwood can be and can he deal with the fact three of my best friends happen to be men. That's another thing he would have to face: my unoffical brothers aka John, Gareth and Burn. Sure I joke that they can be a little overprotective but I would not have it any other way. That's what family is no matter if your blood related or not: family cares for each other and that is something I have in spades. But to be honest I'm just trying to have some faith in the whole process but am wishing Cupid would speed things up just a hair. After reading this its not making much sense but right now that's ok. That is what I get for writing this in a hotel room in Scotland during a need to escape Wales weekend. |
| Saturday, January 2nd, 2010 | |
| 8:50 pm | Agents of ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} album only! |
| Monday, August 17th, 2009 | |
| 1:47 am | Agents of album beyond this point |
| Sunday, February 15th, 2009 | |
| 1:48 am | Agents of craze only |
| Friday, March 7th, 2008 | |
| 9:44 pm | Friends Only The 21st century is when everything changes..... |